I have behaved differently on this journey that I first thought I would. The attraction of travelling all alone within such a different culture was irresistable to me. I found myself separated from every group, intentionally, so I could see them better. See the life. And it has been interesting to observe at the locals as well as the tourists from a distance. With the tourists, it was sometimes like looking in to a mirror. ”I have done that, I have acted that way, and I have let all those things pass me by without noticing” This I found myself thinking too many times. I encourage travelling and working alone, when ever possible. Within a crowd, the focus is always set to something else than the environment. Or at least, when you are alone, you are more sensitive to everything around you. And by watching others, you learn about yourself.
For anyone puzzled by India, I have to recommend a book I was given by a local within my last few weeks here. A semi-autobiographical account of V. S. Naipaul called An Area of Darkness. It gave me answers to many questions I haven’t been able to figure out during my time here, about India and its culture. And to his words I would like to end this blog for good.
”India is the poorest country in the world. Therefore, to see its poverty is to make an observation of no value; a thousand newcomers to the country before you have seen and said as you. And not only newcomers. Our own sons and daughters, when they return from Europe and America, have spoken in your very words. Do not think that your anger and contempt are marks of your sensitivity. You might have seen more: the smiles on the faces of the begging children, that domestic group among the pavement sleepers waking in the cool Bombay morning, father, mother and baby in a trinity of love, so self-contained that they are as private as if walls had separated them from you: it is your gaze that violates them, your sense of outrage that outrages them. You might have seen the boy sweeping his area of pavement, spreading his mat, lying down; exhaustion and undernourishment are in his tiny body and shrunken face, but lying flat on his back, oblivious of you and the thousands who walk past in the lane beetween sleepers’ mats and house walls bright with advertisements and election slogans, oblivious of the warm, overbreathed air, he plays with fatigued concentration with a tiny pistol in blue plastic. It is your surprise, your anger that denies him humanity. But wait. Stay six months. The winter will bring fresh visitors. Their talk will also be of poverty; they too will show their anger. You will agree; but deep down there will be annoyance; it will seem to you then, too, that they are seeing only the obvious; and it will not please you to find your sensibility so accurately parodied.”








